But to see him was to love him
And love forever.
Realize paradise
Is where love dwells and love thy humbly
As it is the principle of existence
Till end..

One year.. One more year to figure out who on this earth i'm going to be before being thrown out into the world. Something absoloutly thrilling about the concept of being thrown out vulnerable to the world.

Reminds me I have ever so much to look forward too.

Isn't life beautiful!

And at once I knew, I was not magnificent..

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets 
And you'll be owning all the fines

In this world we are given two choices when faced with the monstrosity of darkness. 

In contemplating these decisions one must realize that although the coldness and harshness of this statement may slap you were you stand leaving you broken, the world will not wait for you. 

So in that moment you can either choose to lay down or stand up.

 Even in the deepest most dark place in this life you can find the light.

 So don't say me that you can't. Don't tell me it's non existent.

 It exists it just so happens to be on the other side of hard work and determination, blood sweat and tears. 

However its worthy of the pain and the heartache. 

There's always a light, you just have to fight for it.. 

Its a brand new year!

The new year has begun.
Resolutions have been made all over the world. Theses promises to ourselves consist of varied goals in which one strives to complete by the end of the year..
This year i didn't particularly set specific goals for the year. Because this year I plan to enter 2012 optimistic and my goal this year is to generally be a good person.. I want to be successful in my studies this year and use my schooling to aid my future, using it not set a strong foundation in which i can build the rest of my life on. I want to be involved in things that i wouldn't of previously been in. This year i'm seeking happiness. This year i'm seeking independence. This year is going to be amazing, because I welcome it with open arms prepared for whatever may be thrown at me.

The perfectly imperfect princess.

Thoughts, as usual..

Sitting alone tonight I wonder to myself the point in which you identify yourself to be much to dependent on another human being. At which point is it too much? Who decides if it's too much? But what about dependency on people just in general not a single person just anyone, anyone that can assist you in putting one foot in front of the other. Helping and guiding you through the days.

Why do we choose to depend on people when it is so common that people let us down, leaving us with a tremendous quantity of despair and heart ache. People leave.. all the time. thus is life! The way of the world. Change is the inevitable. At the end of the day you can either choose to accept or fight dearly in hope that things will stay the same.

When i decided to start this blog i wasn't quite sure of what i was going to write about however it seems that most of my posts are not of a happy nature. I think i'm using this as a way to vent. Without putting pen to paper and without having to explain my feelings or the situation to someone. It's just here. No questions asked and i like that. I'm not writing this for attention nor am i concerned whether anyone reads this. This blog is for me.